I know, I am a loser! I have not posted since August and that entry was pretty lame. Well, here goes... I will try to sum up 9 months. Logan is almost 11 months now. OMG! Where does the time go? He is growing daily and when he is not screaming, he is an absolute ham. Just this morning, Jason found him in front of Kali's cage barking at her. So, apparently, Logan is the next dog whisperer. He now has 6 teeth and is working on more. Hopefully he will be done soon b/c I can't take anymore miserable Logan. He is just like his Dad! There is no in-between. He is ether really happy or yelling.

Riley has his last t-ball game this weekend and has had a blast! He is quite the little player when he is not talking to the other team, picking dandelions or playing in the dirt.... haha. Jason volunteered to be an assistant coach so you can only imagine the scene. One day, Riley decided he was going to walk to the bases with his helmet on backwards. Let's just say that one did not go over very well with Daddy. God love him, he is such a little comedian always trying to get a good laugh. I love that he has such a sense of humor but worry about his future in school. I have a feeling I will be making many trips to the principals office!

May 12th was Riley's 5th birthday! Once again, where does the time go? He will be starting Kindergarten in the fall and Mommy is freakin' out. I cried just registering him for school. Hopefully, I will be able to make it through the first week without a complete meltdown especially since I am scheduled to begin student teaching. I am still working at Goodwill and love it here so, I am a little hesitant about leaving but, I know that it has to be done. Plus, Jason will have a cow if I don't finish after leaving him home alone with the kids for so many nights.

soooo tired

I am sitting in class waiting for my last student to leave and I just cant wait to go home. I am sooo tired and miss my men. Usually I am good at juggling so many things in my life but I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.... and I haven't even started taking classes yet! All I can think about is how much i have to do at home and what I am missing out on. Little Logan smiles, Riley telling me about his day, family dinner and a goodnight book followed by big hugs and kisses. God, why wont this student finish her final so I can get out of here!!!

and baby makes 4

I was sitting here in my last week of maternity leave and realized that I have not yet updated my blog since the birth of Logan Joshua Burns on June 29th. He weighed 8lbs. 3ozs and was 20.5 inches long. He is much chunckier than my stringbean Riley was but just as cute. This has quickly earned him the nickname meatball. Meatball is now 11 lbs and has already had a trip to the emergency room and the urologist. The emergency room was because I thought he was peeing blood but, it turned out to be urate crystals. He was a little dehidrated so, his urine was to condensed to breakdown the crystals. He had a visit with teh urologyst becasue his penis has a bit of a bend. We will be having surgery to correct this when he is 6 months old.

Before Logan was born, I had all of these great ambitions of things I was going to accomplish while home with my little ones. I wanted to learn how to cook healthy, print all of our family photos and put them into photo albums, do some spring cleaning, work 10 hours a week, and most importantly enjoy everyday. I soon realized however, that having a newborn and a 4 year old is not as easy as I thought it would be and there are just not enough hours in the day or days in the week.

It doesnt seem fair that I can have these 2 beautiful boys but am not allowed to be home with them. This last 6 weeks although hectic and at times a bit overwhelming, flew by without warning. In the face of returning to work, I now fear that I will miss out on so much. I want to be there for every first, every tear and every smile, and mostly, I want my angels to remember me being there. As I look ahead, I suddenly realize how much time I lost with Riley. What did I miss with him as someone else got to enjoy my little boy? How I long to be there for every moment.

Both boys are well and Riley (so far) loves being a big brother. He calls Logan his little poop machine and loves to feed and hold him. I wonder what their relationship will be in the future. Will they be best friends and share their secrets and dreams with each other? Will they always be a part of each others lives? Will they be happy? If I had one wish it would be that both are happy.

The countdown is on

Baby Burns is due in less than 2 weeks and we can hardly wait! Why is it that the last month of pregnancy goes so slow but once you have the little one, time flies by? We are so anxious to meet little Logan Burns and I can't wait to stop peeing every hour. Riley is excited but a little confused about how the baby is getting out of my stomach. He seems to think it's just going to pop out of my belly button... if only it were so easy! Every now and then he asks when we are going to the hospital but over all, has been very patient. One day a month or so ago, I told him we were going to Babies R'us and he got all excited and said "mommy, are we going to get the baby there?" Once again, if only it were that easy.

Shopping with a 4 year old

It is official. My baby turned 4 on Tuesday and I can hardly believe it! To me, he will always be my "little Roo" but he is growing up so fast. I forget how fast until he catches me off guard with his "grown-up" comments and observations. I desperately needed a new pair of summer work shoes so after picking Riley up from daycare yesterday, we headed to Payless. All the way there, he complained that he just wanted to go home, but once we were in the store he was distracted by helping me pick out the perfect pair of shoes. I decided that there was nothing there I liked so we drove accross the street to DSW. If you have ever been to DSW then you know it is like shoe heavan. There are shoes everywhere making it impossible to make a quick purchase. Riley and I began down the isles and once again, he picked out several pairs of shoes he thought I should try on. Eventually, we found a pair that we both liked but, there were so many other shoes in the store, I had to make sure I didnt miss a better pair so, we walked up and down each isle. Riley quickly became bored and started telling me his bones hurt, he didnt want to walk anymore and he wanted to go home so we headed for the register. As we were getting close, another isle full of shoes caught my eye and I began to drift in that direction. Riley asked me where I was going and reminded me that he wanted to go home. When I told him that I just wanted to look at one more pair he replied "Mom! You'r killin me! Let's go" and proceeded to drag me to the checkout. OMG! He sounded just like me when I am trying to get him to do something! I guess it's true that you do turn into your parents.

It's a baby!

Tuesday was a big day in the Burns household as we finally found out what we are having. Yes, it's a baby but the sex was still to be determined. For a while we were not sure if we would but Doctor K finally gave me the ultrasound slip.We all thought it was a girl so were quite surprised when the ultrasound technician pointed out boy parts. Obviously the sex does not matter and we are just as happy with a boy but out the window went my plans for a pink room. Riley was not very happy and continues to tell everyone he is having a sister. Hopefully that will stop after the baby is born, haha.

Busy, busy, busy

The last several weeks have been super busy preparing the house for our new arrival so, I have been slacking a little on keeping everyone updated. Jason re-modeled our bathroom and took out our fireplace replacing it with a coat closet and pantry. He did an incredible job despite all his grumbling and swearing he will never do another bathroom or drywall again. Last weekend while Riley and I occupied ourselves in the yard, Jason, Karen, Ally and Jamie painted the living room in preparation for our new carpet by. (Thank you guys soooo much!) It looks beautiful and the carpet went in on Tuesday.

Amongst all the house renovations, I have been in daycare hell! For several months now, Riley has been having behavior issues at his daycare. It finally got to the point that we decided to send him back to an in-home daycare rather than a center. Everyday he had bad reports and phone calls home. I finally had it when he was sent home for telling the other kids that there were monsters and scaring them. Come'on... he is 3! Anyway, Jason went in that day to pay his tuition and ended up having it out with his teacher and putting in his 2 weeks. Tuesday morning I got a letter from them saying that due to the conversation with Jason and the language used, they were giving us Riley's 2 weeks. Of course I called Jason right away and his story was different from theirs. When I got to work, I immediately sent an email to the school appoligizing for Jason's behavior but also making the point that we were unhappy. The response I got once again told a different story and at then end reflected that Riley was such a disruption to the whole school and it was not fair to everyone there. I know he is not perfect but, he is not that out of control. And, they are a daycare. Is it not their job to deal with such issues and keep the kids happy? Anyway, I decided not to keep him in any longer and pulled him immediately. The week before I had interviewed a nice in-home and so, we called her and set him up to start there the following week. He is now on week 2 and doing awesome. Miss Michele, his new provider, has had no issues with him and says she does not understand why they had so many problems at his old school. I guess he is not the "devil child" they made him out to be after all!